I went to bed last night with so much anxiety. Sometimes I start to feel that something big is going to change in my life. Something that I dont want to change. And it freaks me out. I start to obsess about where and how I may have fucked up, where I may i have been misunderstood. What I would have to do if something changes. What will have to be readjusted in my ever routine-like life. What I may have done wrong and how i can fix it. Ive always had this paranoia that I'm messing up and upsetting someone, and thats probably why I'm always that 'helper' person, the one that says yes to it all in fear that I'll upset someone or get fired or whatever. I dont fucking know what it is, if it happens to everyone, if I'm actually right or wrong, I dont fucking know.... but I do know that I hate the feeling in my stomach and staying awake, trying to sleep...obsessing about figuring it out. Waking up feeling a little better,but not completely convinced of myself trying to convince myself it's all good and just in my head. That shit drives me nuts. And I probably sound pretty nuts right now too Haha. But its the first time I'm taking a step back from those thoughts and trying to figure them out. Sitting with these vibes and emotions and letting them sort out. And that's what I dig ....end rant 👍see, I feel kinda better already.
And this is a blip of my flow today, and it was exactly what I needed, and I'm so glad I got on my mat.
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