When the AFTER becomes the BEFORE :( Really mixed feelings when it comes to this pic. I remember feeling so happy, but I hadn't really wrapped my head around the magnitude of what I had achieved with my weightloss. Looking back now, I'm nearly embarrassed that I didn't celebrate more.
Instead of being EMPOWERED, I abused my new knowledge of the power of food and the ability of your body to CHANGE.
I took it for granted and undid all MY HARD WORK. I have slowly but surely, eaten and drunk my way BACK to my heaviest.
I have fallen back into my old ways, blaming everything from weddings , birthdays, movie nights even PMS (PMS from someone who doesn't have a period regularly enough to Have PMS)
I Smile and I laugh. But I pant and I'm sore. My knees are like maracas crunching up a hill or flight of stairs, yet still I crunch through yet another packet of corn chips.
I jump in on photos, but can't jump out of bed. It's a bad way I've gotten myself back into.
The thing is, I got Lazy. I thought I was done. But the thing I'm learning is, your never done. You are always in competition- WITH YOURSELF. The biggest beast you will ever have to slay, is your own mind. The Biggest cheerleader you could ever hope to gain for yourself IS yourself. The only time to beat, is your own. The mountain you just climbed? You built that , conquered that- claimed it for your own and now , it's yours.
That's what I want for myself. That's what I'm hustling to be. That's my climb. my mountain. My mountain of mental, physical and emotional stuff. I want to champion that mountain and laugh in its face!
This before and after pic is the wrong way around. It's backwards . Just like my thinking and eating has been.
Time to Hustle for the Muscle.
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