See this first picture? That went into my "NEVER TO BE SEEN ON SOCIAL MEDIA!" File. Why? Because of the way my Spanks were causing those three little rolls of fat to show! You guys - I STARVED myself FOR WEEKS for that photoshoot 2 years ago, and I felt stiff and awkward and FAT through the entire shoot. 😔
SWIPE LEFT & FAST FORWARD TO THIS YEAR
I am 10 Pounds heavier in this picture. But I am also Spanks-free, 40, and feeling confidant and beautiful in my own skin even though I am actually heavier. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? It's 100% because of the way I feel about myself. Now, THAT, my friends, is the power of self love! ❤️ This year I've taken a vow to stop dieting and to instead just focus on my overall health. My weight is just one small component of that equation.
I am eating what I want, and starting to listen to my body and what it wants. Trust me, it was a little scary for me at first!! (Remember at one time in my life I was 225lbs!!) At first, I was scared to listen to myself - what if all I wanted was Pizza, Nachos, and McDonalds everyday?! I was scared to give up the (false) sense of control dieting gave me. And I'm not going to lie - at first I did eat a lot and I did gain back some weight. But after a couple of weeks of bloat and feeling lousy, I found my body was naturally craving healthier foods - MOST of the time. Our bodies are intelligent and will seek equilibrium naturally if we allow it. 🙏🏻
In the past I could have never done this! At the heart of my quest to be thin was the need for approval and worthiness. But now that I've learned to give these things to myself - I have found the courage to let go of dieting. 💪🏻
I know that my value is the same no matter what those 3 little numbers on the scale have to say.
Wherever you are in your weight journey today - just know- YOU ARE ENOUGH -Exactly as you are now!!