I see you my friend. You're overwhelmed and possibly struggling to find freedom in your circumstance.
I was there. I remember being miserable, stuck in my cubicle and feeling trapped behind my desk. All I wanted was freedom. I wanted to create my own schedule, make my kids breakfast and be home with my family. I was bitter and resentful of my circumstance.
After many years, God answered my prayers. Now I'm a work at home mom trying to build a business behind a desk in our spare bedroom. It's not even 9am and we've already had a melt down, 2 fights, a wipe out on a bicycle and I'm typing this from my 3rd to attempt to finally use the bathroom all while I hear my kids slamming something around in the kitchen while my husband is trying to sleep.
Sometimes I slip back into my mindset of wishing for a different circumstance and feeling trapped in where I'm at; wondering if the cubicle would have provided me with more peace.
Freedom is found in Christ Jesus
Freedom isn't found in our circumstances
Freedom in Christ isn't earned or rewarded
Freedom in Christ is paid for by His blood
Freedom in Christ is a promise of hope, a future and eternal life.
And, I'll take all that any day over a perfect circumstance.
If you're struggling right now because life just kinda sucks; know you're not alone and there is freedom, hope and purpose no matter what circumstance you're in right now.
And that freedom my friends, is worth it!