Insecurities... My biggest insecurity is how young I can look. In my head I look like an awkward 12 year old.. 14 on a good day 🤓. When I was younger I was super self conscious, weak both mentally and physically. Recently my nutrition has taken a back seat.. I’ve become/stayed quite the lean since my last comp and I hate to admit it.. but lost some of the little muscle I have.
I dont feel weak when I train - I actually feel like my training is on point right now.. my nutrition just doesn’t support it - but when I catch a glimpse at my reflection I sometimes see the skinny little weakling I used to be and not the strong woman I am trying to become.
Mentally this puts me in a bad place and brings on a biiig case of self doubt 🙄
right now I feel the most self conscious I’ve felt this year and I’m not even on stage wearing a skimpy bikini 🤔
Don’t get my wrong, I love seeing veins in places I haven’t and it’s cool to see muscles when you train, but I’m not about to compete again soon.. I don’t need to be this lean.. If I want to come back bigger and better, then I need to get bigger to be better #logic
The thing I love about weight training is the stronger you get, the stronger you feel mentally.
It’s time to focus on getting strong, to toughen up, bulk up and lift some (heavy) weights up (and down repeatedly) 💪🏻