Next week I’ll be taking a leap of faith and start a diet bet. This requires that I weight myself. Last time I was weighted I weighted so much I could not comprehend how I had gained over 40 lbs since the previous time I weighted myself. Then again, I never exercised, ate whatever I wanted, drank more alcohol than water and slept crazy late to wake up restless and exhausted. I feel my body changing but I dont want to see the scale staring back and feel dissapointed. In this new challenge I must lose 10 lbs within a month which is totally doable, just the scale and weight part is what terrifies me!!!.
The thing is, I have always been able to accomplish everything that I set myself out to do, everything has always been more important to me than my own health, my own body, my own image, my own reflexion. The punishment my body was taking was somethig that I could hold for a little bit longer until I finished a project. Then another big project came, then unhealthy relationships, depressions, more projects and next thing I knew I was using alcohol to relieve my stress. But I’ll be so stressed out most of the time that one drink would never be enough anymore. Then one day I was rejected for the life insurance I wanted, I couldnt climb a mountain, I had to find excuses why I didnt want to go on a roller coaster when in reality I didnt want to get on one and be told I was too big to ride it. Or my big hips not fitting on it and had do to the walk of shame back and out of the line.
Now, I set out to have this body for the rest of the life God will grant me. I will take care of these legs that walk me and hold me everywhere and I promise to relief their punishment by losing weight. This weight is for me, no one else. No one phisically has to carry this body than my own legs. No one else will die if I do. This is the only body I get and I will take care of this heart, brain, body and heal my soul. #fitness #motivated #weightlosstransformation #caloriesincaloriesout #tiredaf #fitbit #fitbitcharge2 #fitnessmotivation #exercise #exercisemotivation #gettingfit #gettingitdone #letsdothis #letsdothisshit #mytime