You are a wonder. There are questions in the world that only you can answer. I know that what happened to you wasn't fair. I know that they shouldn't have done you like that. You never would have done it to them. I know that you've been trying to get in the right place for a long time, but you're tired and you're hungry.
Try Him again. Right there. In your pain and confusion. In your mess and your mistakes. This isn't just about weight loss ( but we'll take some of that) or just healing (we'll take all of that). We're working on the temple, but there are some vessels in there- some gold, some wood, some precious, powerful stuff. Some of it was soken,but we're going to bring it back home. All of it. God has been building you, hiding you for a long time. This year, this season, if you are willing He is going to reveal you...so
The king took home to Babylon all the articles, large and small, used in the Temple of God, and the treasures from both the Lord ’s Temple and from the palace of the king and his officials.
2 Chronicles 36:18 NLT