Okay guys, let's talk about creating. This is my current WIP. What is it? Whole lotta nothing. What's it going to be? Hopefully a super crappy first underwater painting, because I have ideas but IDK the first thing about waves and light beams and stuff. I'm gonna learn...and here's the beginning of my first attempt.
We don't often show our first attempts to anybody, especially the internet. We want everyone to believe we all came straight outta the gate rockstars at whatever we put our minds to. We're not. And lately I've been thinking a lot about that. I'm a really good writer who hasn't been able to write anything of substance in damn near two years. And I really think I've figured out my problem.
I got intimidated. I intimidated myself. In wanting to rewrite what I hoped would be my first novel, I got lost in how monumental the task was, in comparing myself to other published writers, I got lost in the fear and forgot the fun. I abandoned the messy first attempt as "not good enough." I drowned myself in depression and a job where I'm constantly told I'm not good enough (and I do mean constantly, guys, it happened again today and I swear I died a little inside). So I'm painting and being terrible at it, while occasionally producing something great. Before I go to bed, I'mma throw some words on a page. Create stuff because it's fun and you love to do it. Not everybody is a rockstar, we all have messy first attempts and terrible middle years, and me?
I'm just trying to learn how to make waves.
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