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Yesterday marked the real 1 year since the last time I saw my dad. Today marks 1 year since my dad passed away and I’ve basically isolated myself for 13 days since his “official” funeral felt a bit less personal than I had wanted it to be and ended the 12 month cycle in the most foolish of ways.  But in this time, I realized that I didn’t hate everything about it. Just the parts that involved other people telling me what to do and how when I don’t particularly care for rituals but I’m also the only person who knows what’s going going on. I hate doing things because we’re “supposed to”. I won’t write about why that grated my nerves but there were parts that reminded me why I’m and atheist Hindu. My dad and I had many a religious debates since I moved home after his stroke. Just weeks before he passed away, while Priti and fam were over, out of the blue he starts arguing one of my core beliefs that he had always disagreed with. I was shocked but happy to fly in out of nowhere to hop on his side since this was a BREAKTHROUGH. I can’t even begin to tell you how many coincidences happened leading up to his passing and up until today still. But I think I hit the moment where I stopped trying to resist it and just decided to ride that wave when Sasha and Pushpa tag teamed getting me through a particularly overwhelming day. Over the 13 days, I’ve abused several journals, writing everything out I ever wanted to and maybe I’ll share some, but today I just wanted to remember that he’s gone. I came home on the 22nd and he asked me to spend the night since I’d be back early afternoon the next day but I decided to go home anyway. He died alone in the house. We had interesting interactions that day at Sachida’s birthday party he insisted on hosting since that’s his bestie.  Some of those coincidences that lead me to discover wildly confusing facts are yet to be resolved, but most of it was him showing me why and how he’s loved a son that he enjoyed talking to regularly but was just learning how to communicate without debating for the sake of debate. (Continued in comments...)

Yesterday marked the real 1 year since the last time I saw my dad. Today marks 1 year since my dad passed away and I’ve basically isolated myself for 13 days since his “official” funeral felt a bit less personal than I had wanted it to be and ended the 12 month cycle in the most foolish of ways.  But in this time, I realized that I didn’t hate everything about it. Just the parts that involved other people telling me what to do and how when I don’t particularly care for rituals but I’m also the only person who knows what’s going going on. I hate doing things because we’re “supposed to”. I won’t write about why that grated my nerves but there were parts that reminded me why I’m and atheist Hindu. My dad and I had many a religious debates since I moved home after his stroke. Just weeks before he passed away, while Priti and fam were over, out of the blue he starts arguing one of my core beliefs that he had always disagreed with. I was shocked but happy to fly in out of nowhere to hop on his side since this was a BREAKTHROUGH. I can’t even begin to tell you how many coincidences happened leading up to his passing and up until today still. But I think I hit the moment where I stopped trying to resist it and just decided to ride that wave when Sasha and Pushpa tag teamed getting me through a particularly overwhelming day. Over the 13 days, I’ve abused several journals, writing everything out I ever wanted to and maybe I’ll share some, but today I just wanted to remember that he’s gone. I came home on the 22nd and he asked me to spend the night since I’d be back early afternoon the next day but I decided to go home anyway. He died alone in the house. We had interesting interactions that day at Sachida’s birthday party he insisted on hosting since that’s his bestie.  Some of those coincidences that lead me to discover wildly confusing facts are yet to be resolved, but most of it was him showing me why and how he’s loved a son that he enjoyed talking to regularly but was just learning how to communicate without debating for the sake of debate. (Continued in comments...)

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