I would have fought 1,000 men for her. I would have stood in front of any army to defend her.
My last breath would have served her if I could draw it.
But i didn't realize until all of this happened how badly I hurt her. How delicate she was, and how it was my duty, my commandment from God, to protect her from all things, including the enemy that came from me.
I do speak of divorce of this world a lot. Because divorce is of this world. It was a way for the enemy to put the apple at the middle of the marriage, and not God.
Rebecca and I both believe in the Lord, but somewhere along the way, we served the flesh as our master and turned our backs on Him and His ways.
We hid in the garden, our marriage and our actions in secret from the world and from one another.
We came to love the apple and all that it had to offer.
Woe to any man or woman who suffers through a divorce. Though my pain be not your pain, I know what the separation from God was like for 30 years of my life.
And I cannot ever imagine living a life without God. God cannot become any less God to me. I cannot ignore or forget he exists.
Now? Unfortunately, there is no imagination. A divorce is the similar to the separation from God.
Something that should be. But isn't.
And only God could ever heal this.
If any of you has ever read or seen or liked or thought anything of me, pray. Pray for the reconciliation in our lives in the same way God reconciled us to Him through His son.
I have mentioned in life God showed me Hell. Then He showed me love. Now He has shown me loss.
He seeks mercy. Not sacrifice.
And my God is the God of the impossible. I will pray this until God tells me not to.
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