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Hello my beautiful people 🌺💞🌺
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#Breakfast was two ricewaffles with apricot jam and a kiwi 🥝🥝🥝and of course a coffee ☕
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#morningsnack was a tangerine 🍊🍊🍊 and a #ovomaltine cerealbar 😍💪 was sooo good!
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#lunch was Rice (fearfood!) with meat and kohlrabi 🙊 added a tomato because I thought it looked a bit sad 🍅💞
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Have a good Wednesday 💞🌺💞
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im beginning to think I should just dedicate this page to oats 🤔
beautiful apple oats w peanut butter and yogurt 😋
i have exams next week 😬 hopefully i can manage to study but i do have shit time management so we’ll see
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guess who lost weight?? fun fun fun - really though I want to cry, every time I loose weight my parents restrict my sport and my mum refuses to speak to me for at least 2 days, i don’t know what to do anymore i feel sick with the amount of food I’m already eating i don’t understand how i lost weight??? -
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #strongnotskinny #recovery #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #breakfast #anarecovery #fightingana #anorexiafighter #recoveryisworthit #recovering #oats #oatmeal

#Breakfast was Pikelets (!!)with 15g Biscoff and Rasberries, and a cool mint mocha x
This was a HUGE challenge as not only did I have it way before my safe time, I had something completely different which was the pikelets!! They were so good, just really filling which was annoying. Feeling so guilty now but I know that if I want to have energy for the 2 hour meeting today I have to eat!!
Really anxious for the meeting as I’m pretty sure I’ll find out at the end if they want me on medication, but trying not to think ahead as much as I can as I don’t want to stress over it. Also really worried for going for lunch in Costa with mum after the meeting, so trying not to think about that too much either as I want to be as stress free as possible before the meeting x
Enjoy your day xx

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day 33 dinner: vegan quiche! and i finished most of it so today’s been a very productive recovery day and also a really emotionally exhausting day

Nightsnack was oatmeal topped with cinnamon and sukrin gold, an apple, a small pear, sf vanilla quark with sf avocado&cocoa mousse, raspberries&blueberries and sf nuts&seeds granola, nuts, a 400 kcal caramel nutritiondrink and a cup of green mango&lyche tea😓
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Good evening my lovely people 💞
#dinner was #granola 🌾 again with plain yoghurt BUT I added something really #swiss : #ovomaltine 😍🙊😱 it was sooo good and a real #recoverywin ! Take that ana 💁‍♀️💪
Good night 🌺💞🌺
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day 33 lunch outing: some sushi 🍱with tofu, cucumber 🥒, and avocado 🥑, and a side of edamame and i finished it all but 3 of the sushi’s!! also got some vegan dark chocolate ice cream for dessert and I FINISHED IT ALL! that’s the first dessert i’ve ever finished AND it was on an outing!! it was good even though it was a little salty because i was crying into it 😂

Earliers #Eveningsnack was a Protein Nut bar and an apple 🍎xx
Difficult as again I wasn’t even hungry for it, but it was really nice!! Haven’t tried this bar before and it’s really good, 100% recommend it x
Have another challenge tomorrow as the meeting is at 10, and will go on until 12 so by the time we’re back home I would miss morning snack and lunch, so me and mum will go to Costa after and I’ll have lunch then!! Will be very challenging as it has to be around 500/570 cals (what we put on the plan) but I know I have to or I won’t be able to get the cals in anywhere else. Haven’t actually had anything other than a breakfast in Costa before which was porridge, so having something like a lunch seems so scary to me. It was either that or McDonald’s though and there’s no way I’m ready for that yet x
Having a lovely evening with mum so far, snuggling and watching vampire diaries. Thoughts and anxiety for tomorrow are bugging me but I’m trying to not stress over it too much, and I’ll sleep with mum again tonight as I don’t feel safe and like I can trust myself alone x
Goodnight xx

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#Dinner was an 85g Salmon fillet, 175g new potatoes and 80g peas, then pud was a highlights hot choc 🌰xx
This took me quite a while to eat as I found it quite difficult, but it was so good!! Haven’t had a salmon fillet for so long and I can’t believe how perfectly it was cooked too. Annoyingly though I felt full again after I’d only eaten a little so didn’t enjoy it as much as I wish I did 🤦🏼‍♀️
Mood is a little low again but my sister has just gone to my dads so me and mum will watch some vampire diaries after planning tomorrow in a minute which should hopefully take my mind off it x
Enjoy your eve xx

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Tortellini-Soup as my #Dinner tonight! These are some Prosciutto filled Tortellini with corn, peas and carrots! It tasted really good and I cooked it together with my Mom.😋😍😊🙆‍♀️ I'm a bit struggling right know, because my walk today wasn't as long as normally 😫 // #ana #recovery #recoveryfromanorexia #anorexia #fightingana #staystrong #wanttoliveagain #fuckanorexia #strongagainstana #food #foodlove #soulfood

Earliers #Afternoonsnack was a cup of tea and 3 Digestive lights (!!!)🌟xx
I haven’t had digestive biscuits for SO damn long so when mum suggested them when we were planning last night I didn’t know what to do. My head was screaming that there was no way, and I’m not “Allowed” to have them as even the light ones are just under double the calories of a Rich tea, but I shut those thoughts up and told my mum to write it down!! So that’s what I had for afternoon snack today, a cup of tea and 3 digestive lights. They were so good too and it’s been so long since I’ve tasted one of these, they bring back so many memories of enjoying some in the evening with my mum pre ed or being given a couple as a snack when I would go to a family members house. So weird how the taste or texture of something can bring back so many old memories 🤷🏼‍♀️😆
Dinner will be salmon fillets with new potatoes and peas!! Although salmon is super healthy and good for you I’m really freaking out about having it for dinner tonight. My mum is trying to keep me calm about it and keeps reminding me how good it is and that I really need it so I’m trying my hardest to listen to her words and not my own disordered and irrational thoughts x
My ED specialist called again earlier to say that she may or may not want to weigh me tomorrow, most likely not which is odd but she said she wants to leave my anorexia out of the meeting completely and just focus on my other mental health issues and all that. I was a little shocked considering how she made it so clear if I loose again I’m in hospital, but I’m not complaining as I don’t want to feel 10x worse knowing If I’ve gained any weight. My mum told her I’ve been completing my meal plan though so I guess that’s also why as she trusts me in deciding if I want to be admitted or not, and hopes I’ll let the voice wanting me have Christmas at home be stronger than anorexia’s x
Enjoy your eve/afternoon 🌟xx

Guess who had #lunch at school with many people?! Yes this girl 💁‍♀️💪🙌 lunch was the same as yesterday but I added a paprika 🌶️😍 After that I ate a #cookie that tasted like freakin' H E A V E N 🙊🙈 it was like #cheesecake . But then I felt so guilty 😥
Hope you are having a good tuesday 🌺😊🌺
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Dinner was fish sticks with potato mash and cauliflower 💫

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