Do you ever have those moments where you are 100% present in your life?
Where you are so full of pure joy, pure happiness, and pure wonder?
For a very long time I didn't experience those feelings at all.
I was trapped in a life of hopelessness, sadness, anxiety, and fear.
The light in me felt dimmed.
On a daily basis, it was as if the world was a snowglobe, and I was on the outside looking in.
Honestly it felt like I didn't really exist.
Until I reignited the fire in my soul. 🔥
I became so full of passion and adventure.
I began exploring like I was a child again.
No expectations, just curiosity.
Yesterday was a prime example of that.
I grew up snowboarding, it had become a big part of my life...but in the last 10 years between my drug addiction, eating disorder, depression, and anxiety - it was no longer even a thought in my mind.
Yesterday, was my first time out since I was 18.
I reminded myself to let go of expectations, not be such an asshole to myself, and just have fun. (Practicing what I teach erryday 💁)
For a minute fear and anxiety kicked in, and I told myself "Nah girl, this is excitement! Let it happen. You deserve this."
And you know what? It went BETTER than I thought it might.
But even if it didn't, above all else I had so much fun, my goofball was in full force, and I just experienced the beauty of life.
I jumped right in with courage and confidence. And let go of fear and worry.
I released the need for perfection and just played.
Anywho, moral of the story: Don't be afraid to look stupid, do what makes you happy, be courageous, step into your fears with excitement, and do fun shit. 😝
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