Ah to put this song up or not. I must admit, I like to consider myself a pretty strong person. I mean, I can open jars by myself and I don't cry at The Lion King (anymore) but I have absolutely been wiped out emotionally by this pregnancy. In the absence of faith, and confidence in myself. I've felt a little lost. This song was cathartic to write and record, it's what depression feels like in my head. And in this world of social media smoke and mirrors, I think it's important to show people some facets of yourself that are real sometimes. So here is a very raw writing style that I only really ever intended for my own ears.