Esther's #story part 3- so if you've been following with my stories, you've read about my experience with molestation in part 1 (when I was in #elementary #school) and #binge #eating #disorder in part 2 (time frame from when I graduated with my BA in 2012 until early 2017). Part 3 is what happened in #highschool and how it affected me until early 2017.
In #February 2006, my mom got into an accident at work. She severely injured her head, lost most of her hearing in one ear, and had to wear a neck brace. Her memory was so poor, she couldn't distinguish between a cat or dog. Being a single parent and living off of workers compensation, she had a stressful time. I remember being called out of my #Spanish #class to meet with someone who said he was my #social worker. He told me 1. Mom wanted to kill me and my brother then commit suicide 2. We had to be separated from my mom 3. We had to switch schools and move. We didn't move. Instead she moved out of the two bedroom apartment we shared with our grandparents in Canoga Park. She lived with my uncle and aunt in #LA. After a few meetings with the social workers, she was able to move back home but the atmosphere got worse.
There was a lady living across from where we lived and her cigarette smoke would go into my grandpa's room. He made a scene yelling and cursing at her. Not only was it embarrassing but when my mom would try to stop him, things got violent behind closed doors. There were lots of clothes being ripped, bruises, yelling, and profanity between my mom and Grandpa. One of the scariest times were when I returned home to see my grandpa about to hit my mom with a hammer. I've had countless nightmares of people close to me being killed or committing suicide. Two vivid nightmares I haven't forgotten were 1. My brother crying telling me our mom was killed. I walked into my grandpa's room with my mom on the bed, neck slit and eyes rolled with blood everywhere. He wanted to kill us too so we ran down the hall and locked ourselves in our room (To be continued in next post)
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