Thought it might be time for me to tell you a shortly about my story.
I have want to die for about 5-6 years. I got these thoughts before I started at middle school, and I didn't get bullied before middle school. So my first suicidal thoughts came from my family and other things outside the school.
When I started at middle school I got bullied because of different reasons.
I thought it would be better when I started at high school but... I was wrong, I was so wrong. It got worse in high school. New school, new class, new people, my social anxiety got worse too.
In august this year I started to cut myself, and started to starving myself too. I have been thinking of to do it since the beginning, I don't know why I didn't start earlier.
I have used a several things to cut myself. I was clean for about 41 days, but my eating disorder was worse during that time. But a few weeks ago I started to cut again, mostly because of my ADD. And now I'm trying not to cut (I have told why I'm trying not to cut and so in another post)
So here I am, trying not to cut, trying to not eat (Sorry if my English is bad) #sad #depressed #anxiety #anorexia #socialanxiety #broken #selfharm #selfhate #cut #starvingmyself #eatingdisorder #hatelife #hatemyself #blood #lonely #lost #trying #fat #fatfatfat #killme #iwannadie #dontcareaboutme