A subject that still won't remove its self from my mind or body these days. My latest blog is up and it's one that millions of parents struggle with everyday. Mental illness is a real condition and it's an absolute bellend! Go and have a read and see if you don't see a connection to yourself. ☝️Link is in my bio👆
Baby #2 is coming out in less than 4 weeks time! And I’m currently enjoying looking through and editing 1 set of wedding day photos, 2 sets of pre-wedding photos, and 1 set of birthday photos before I pop! Hope there’s still enough time thereafter to prepare all the necessary baby stuff! 😄
He loves us through our mistakes. He works so hard for us. He provides. He gives piggyback rides. He wrestles and crawls on the floor. He admits when he's wrong. He apologizes. He is a caregiver. He gives and loves. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Happy Father's Day my love. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ God has blessed us so much with you as my husband and father of our babies!
The newest member of Team B - Orla Rose born yesterday on 20 June 2018 at 15.45 weighing a teeny 4.2lbs but kicking and screaming and strong! She’s in the Neonatal Unit being monitored due to her size and I managed to get out of bed late this evening to be with her a little. My blood pressure has normalised and i feel so much better. It’s so funny that I had preeclampsia and was feeling awful but never really made an issue and got in with it. I was working Monday and a Tuesday and the next day I had a baby. I was too worried to just say I’d like to start maternity early, even when things started to deteriorate. Surrounded by crying babies in bed tonight which is weird. I don’t feel like I’m bonding with her because I can’t hold her. I’ve tried expressing into a syringe as we still can’t take her out yet and not sure how long that will be. Although she’s doing well it’s difficult to tell when we can take her home simply because of her size. Everyone is receiving breastfeeding advice but I’ve been told to rest tonight and not to worry too much. I am not sure what I think about it all and wondering if I should just get a manual madela pump as I’m producing tiny amounts doing the old self expressing method. Although midwife says not suitable for the first 48 hours! I’ve decided to self-medicate this time for my pain as I seemed to get forgotten about quite a bit last time and missed a few doses which made it really painful! The worst of it too is I haven’t managed to get a decent picture of her yet either and Mr B didn’t film or photo Heidi’s introduction to Orla which I couldnt go to. Thank you all so much for your kind messages! They meant so much during one of the most anxious times of my life. I feel strangely rested today. Being away from the chaos of the house and am trying not to worry but live in the now. Mr B will stay home tomorrow to oversee finishing the joinery elements. So we can finally start to love things back. We will also probably have weird coloured skirtings for some time too and a dusty unfinished staircase! But none of that matters for now. I just want my Orla to be okay and in my arms. #4weeksearly#neonatal#familyof4#needacuddle
My family dynamic is about to change forever! But when you go through your phone and find the perfect mood of your babies taking selfies! You smile and realize life is going to be just fine! More than fine! I will NEVER let these three down! They are my heart beat outside of my chest and they deserve the freakin world! I mean look at those faces! Mommy got us! ALWAYS! #jaydenamsmith#kendrickimansmith#zoëchanelmariesmith#myfamily#familyof4#mystrength