This morning stung..unfortunately yesterday was not my day or what I planned. Everyone else showed up for me and I was the only one that disappointed myself. My everyday support system of my family was there encouraging & cheering me on and my team was incredible every step of the way from early morning preparations, make up/hair, tan touch ups, food/macro intake, pumping up backstage with moral support, coaching during stage prejudging and so so much more way before the stage even happens. Even taking the time and effort to see what I can adjust in the future. Never giving up on me! I am so grateful for you all❤️ In no way am I looking for anyone to feel bad for me because there are no excuses! Not all work was lost but it doesn't matter because I can do better. The only way to improve is to learn from it and own up to my actions in this sport. Every competitor must show up to perform at their greatest in the moment it counts. Just OK or good is not enough for me. It's a competition and I come to compete. Although I looked my absolute best so far & I was very happy/satisfied with my overall package, in the judging moment I did not nail it. Now moving upward and onward it's time for my own personal redemption in 3 short weeks so I've got work to do. Thank you all for reaching out with good luck and well wishes. I appreciate it😊
Leg day was a series of failures. Couldn't keep my chest up, feet too far apart and turned out too much, had trouble keeping my knees behind my toes, couldn't drop my butt. I'd drop the weight, hit it perfect, then add 10 pounds and failed every single time. I tried over and over and couldn't get it. Came back from Thailand a stranger to lifting. Here we go back to square one 😭 #falldown7standup8
One day you'll awake.. And the heavy weight your heart has carried will be gone.. You'll have accepted things 4 what they weren't. You'll be okay with the outcome. One day you'll continue on your way and not look back.. You'll finally shed a genuine smile. You'll realize ur worth.... One day they'll wake up and realize they forever fucked up.
Start over. Call reset and go again. Reinvent yourself. There is no one who can tell you to stop being who it is you want to be. No one to say you can’t start over or go back and change your mind. You can be WHOEVER you want to be... it’s entirely up to you. Monday’s are a great day to start. Start anything. Restart anything. Write down goals and go for it...AND KEEP GOING FOR IT. Keep hitting reset. Redo. Keep getting up. Because every time you fall down, you come up stronger. More determined. No one can stop a person who refuses to give up. Just keep getting up. #dontquit#falldown7standup8#betheheroofyourownstory#youholdthepower