Temptation is a doozy isn't it? Can't have it? Now I want it! #mindtrip
Man was this weekend full of all sorts of temptations. Not enough food prep followed by a pure crazy schedule had me one hangry person. I was mad all day Saturday as I watched the family eat pizza for lunch followed by my absolute favorite meal: nachos for dinner. Something about the crunch of a good chip makes the world right.🙌🏻 I stood in the kitchen after everyone went to bed staring at the leftover nachos trying to talk myself into why it would be okay to cheat on Whole30. 👉🏻 I have to work so hard for a good body it's not fair, so why try? 👉🏻 Why do I have to be constantly vigil about my diet when others can eat whatever they want with no consequences? 👉🏻 I hate myself for wanting these dang chips so bad. But I always seem to find reasons to be disappointed in myself so whats the difference? 👉🏻 Whats one cheat meal in the grand scheme of things? 👉🏻I haven't been able to get to my goal yet and this time will probably be no different, no matter how much I try.
But as I stood there I came to the realization that I wouldn't be cheating on Whole30, a book and eating guide. I'd truly be cheating on myself. And I'm done with letting food and my mind win. They've won over and over and each time a little piece of my confidence in my ability to do hard things gets chipped away. And then it becomes even harder the next time I try.
In the grand scheme of things this isn't just about looks and it's truly not about weight. It's about what's going on inside our bodies. It's about how we sleep, how much energy we have, our mood, our skin, and the list goes on and on.
I was still fuming as I stomped up to bed that night. And Sunday was rough too. But today, today I can look back and I'm so proud of me. Proud for pushing through such a storm of temptation and coming out the other end unscathed. That's a first. And that's a victory.
I may not be quite half way through yet. But what I learned about myself and what I know I can do know, well the rest of it I have faith I can accomplish. #whole30tribe #18moredays