Last year I decided things had to change.
Yes I love my job, but I finally realised that over the years it had consumed me. I had become unhealthy and obsessed with lashing - and worst off - a work a holic!
I'd wake up in the morning, go on my phone to search lashes and trawl every lash forum - then start lashing for the day, finish late, check my phone looking at all things lashing before I crashed for the evening and it all started again the next day.
What suffered was my health, my body and my relationships with others.
I became an unhealthy recluse, my life was online, apart from the clients I met who once I started lashing I didn't speak to ( my no talking rule when lashing )
My body and mind started to suffer too.
I gained a lot of weight, due to my convenience diet and lack of exercise. The more weight I gained the I unhappier I was and the more I threw myself into work to block out how I stated to dislike what I saw in the mirror.
I stopped going out, I didn't want people to see what I'd become / actually i was boring because all I was interested in was lashes!
Back then I couldn't see how unhealthy I was / I convinced myself that it was ok because it was work !
But in reality I was so unhappy having lost my identity to lashes.
I'm not really sure what my kick up the arse was but I decided I had to change my life as I felt I was existing.
I had to start from inside out changing my diet and starting to exercise ( we all know exercise makes you happy )
And although my unhappiness wasn't just physical I knew that if you didn't feel good on the outside you cannot feel good on the inside and vice versa.
So I got my backside in gear - and I won't lie, it was not at all easy to start with, actually I hated it, but the more I did of training and eating the better my mental health and physical health improved.
A year on and I'm in a good place - I've realised I cannot be a slave to lashing and working all hours. I need a life, time away from lashing so that I can appreciate it when I return to it because what we do and how we make our clients feel is such an amazing feeling and we cannot lose sight of that - which I did :(