This is Ereshkigal. I just connected with this energy FULLY tonight. She's an ancient Sumerian/Mesopotamian Goddess. She's sometimes described as a woman in agonizing labor who never gives birth. This Feminine archetype is a woman who experiences the collective consciousnesses agonizing emotional heartbreak constantly. She allows herself to experience the pain fully. The symbol here for me is that for my entire life I've been running away from the raw agony that exists within my solitude. So I manifested relationships, friendships, and sexual partners hoping they could make me forget about it, cover it up, or love me enough so I won't have to feel it, but they did exactly the opposite.They lead me right back to that dark sore loneliness I tried desperately to avoid. I've never been taught to allow pain to exist, I was taught to ignore, suppress, and cover it up. Even in the spiritual community, we're constantly pushed away from our darker emotions, to be more positive, to be more optimistic, to be anything, but to feel these darker sad pits of despair. But this Goddess, She feels DEEPLY and FULLY. The way the Divine Feminine is coming into this reality to help human ascension take place is by putting us in situations where we will no longer have a choice, but to surrender to the agony that's within. When we're in spirit form, we're always connected to source and God and Goddess and everything is always happy,l and beautiful, but we chose to incarnate here to experience everything in physical form that we can't experience in spirit. The good, the bad and especially the ugly. Appreciate and allow yourself to completely digest the pain. Comfort your body through it. Hold space for yourself. Those are labor pains before you give a new birth to yourself. In order to give birth, the woman must surrender to the experience in totality as a force greater than herself that passes through her like an open channel. Surrender to your pain. Nurture it. The only way out, is through.