I don’t laugh anymore. When I was 16, I killed myself. "Choose life, choose a family” and I whispered no. I remember your shaking voice when I let you down.but did you see the tears I shed when you took another sip. You had the look in your eyes that said it all, but believe me when I say I used to love my life. But you took that from me and I keep dreaming.. I keep wishing. I always wondered how it would be without you. I drank the last coffee and wrote it down: My whole life.the bitter taste of all the memories when you touched my hands.swallowed down, forgotten.. but I will never forgive. I light a cigarette and think of all my favorite scenes.just to forget the sound of your voice. I take a deep breath trying to feel it inside my hands.nothing but a memory fading into the atmosphere.
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