I am a huge crybaby. I cry over the dumbest shit imaginable. But I wasn't always that way. I used to hate crying, especially in front of other people. I would shove that shit down to the darkest, deepest depths of my soul in hopes I could drown the bastards. I felt that sadness made me look weak, childish, and tragically vulnerable. And I could not have that. I was too cool, too put together. So I just would t cry- I simply ignore the impulse, the feelings, and move on with my life. But that doesn't mean the sadness wasn't there; it was always in me, probably even more so because I wasn't dealing with it in a healthy and personally honest way. But, like #LouisCK says here, one day the sadness will just creep up and boil over and you'll be forced to give in...and you'll cry. And cry. And cry some more. You'll cry big, ugly, guttural sobs complete with oozing snot and wheezing breath and red, puffed up eyes. And then, as if by some kind of magic, you'll feel okay again. You'll feel better than okay. Now I cry all the time. If I feel sad, I cry. If something touches my soul, I cry. If I'm so happy or relieved, I'll probably start crying. I've learned that crying doesn't mean you're weak- quite the opposite, in fact. It means you've decided to face the hurt, the pain, the sadness, the joy, confusion, elation and everything in between that life hurtles your way and you let it hit you head on, at full-force. It's allowing yourself to be your fullest, clearest you. Which is the strongest, bravest, the most fucking transcendent thing you can do in this life. .
Thanks to @neil_strauss for sharing this video and to #LouisCK for being so right about so many things.
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