My soul has been doing another layer of repatterning around the Masculine this past week. I've noticed my adrenals switched on and a perceived need to shut my heart down in order "to protect myself, to keep myself safe" when around the men in my life and their emotional vulnerability, confusion and resistance. Its brought up memories of all the ways I've experienced the Masculine hurt me in the past by not being Present to their own Truth. My fears and the accompanying visceral response no doubt did protect me in my past...including in past lives. However I'm realising that what I'm experiencing right NOW is an opportunity...a call to heal the fear & pain that's blocking me from keeping my heart open to Love. A call to another level of my own Freedom. To heal my outdated perceptions of the Masculine and my own Inner Patriarch.
Deep down I love the men in my life. I want to support them to rise and find balance in their Feminine & Masculine within just as we women are. I know the path for many men may challenging...many of them so sensitive yet not understanding how to use that sensitivity as a strength. What reference point do they have?
So I've been taking a few deep breaths, noticing my hurts & fears...feeling what DID happen to me and holding that with deep compassion...grounding down through my root, and I'm CHOOSING forgiveness...and a new story.
I believe as women we can BE a resonance for our men to come home to (if they're willing). Through our own self love & healing, reclaiming our Sacred Womb power for ourselves first, we then have the capacity to hold space for them and hold the same faith & compassion for their process as we do for ourselves. They are carving a new path, a new paradigm just like we are. We are not enemies. We can coexist in love rather separate in fear 👸🌈🤴