LITTLE GAINS, A LOT OF PAIN... This is the look (and attitude) I shot my personal trainer’s way (with my sweaty, puffy, pouty face) at today’s session.
I’ve had a few setbacks with neuropathic pain in recent weeks which has landed me balls deep in struggle town.
Though it’s a place I’m familiar with it has been frustrating AF, so, like any grown up person, I made that known in a mature fashion.
It was more a ‘throw my toys’ & stamp my feet kind of way... because “my buns, they don’t feel nothin’ like steel, Cher.”
Physical rehabilitation can feel like two steps forwards & three steps back & it’s hard to keep your chin up. I manage to catch a glimpse of my life returning to some kind of normalcy, like a mirage in the middle of the chronic illness desert, only to then feel as though I’ve stepped in chronic pain quicksand.
And so, my ever patient trainer let me have my little petulant child moment then gently reminded me that I have come a long way. That every stage of recovery & rehabilitation will present a new challenge.
So, in fact, my setbacks are just signs that I’m breaking new ground with my progress. As frustratingly slow as it is, my measured-in-millimeters progress, is still far better than where I used to be.
He urged me to pull myself up by the bootstraps, push through the pain & just keep going.
It’s never easy.
And, to be fair, we have been training together for 5 years & this is one of a few times I’ve cracked it & briefly felt like giving up following a set back. Or rather, one of a few times I’ve actually shown it (I’m usually a poker face when it comes to physical pain).
Though my buns may not be like steel, my mind has to be. Each & every session hurts... a lot.
Not only in the “normal” way (tired, sore & burning muscles) but also in the EDS way (joint pain & neuropathy). But you’ve got to keep on moving forward, even when it gets hard & painful.
And one day, when you look up, your trainer will point out those sweet, sweet micro gainz... and you officially become a douchey gym-bro who says things like #gainz.
(Ugh as if, no one should ever say that word: ever).