I am learning to put myself first & with that, comes prioritizing my mental illness & chronic illness. Sometimes I find myself laying in bed for hours. While it appears I am "just being lazy" for the day/night, I'm actually busy fighting a battle in my mind. I am either having flashbacks of past trauma, reminiscing on my ED days, or practicing opposite action with my self destructive thoughts & behaviors. Other times I am stuck in bed fighting a battle with my physical health. When my blood sugar is low, I am unable to think clearly, & walk safely. When my blood sugar is high, I am unable to think clearly, my body aches & my stomach hurts. I am learning that when I am busy "just lying in bed," I don't have to justify it to & it is so empowering!!
If any of you are physically AND/OR mentally busy, it is 100% okay to take time away from your life to take care of yourself!! You matter love!!