I’ve been so focussed on not physically relapsing that I neglected the compassion my mental health needed. Recovering from an eating disorder is a balancing act between both physical and mental recovery.
However, Ana doesn’t believe in sharing thoughts/emotions. She believes in holding them tight inside you, in a fragile jar with a twisting cap. Using restriction, purging, isolation and fear to twist the cap tighter and tighter until it’s too tight. Until theres too much pressure and it breaks and shatters all around you. And you’re there, alone, picking up every sharp piece.
Not until you show those pieces to others, can you begin accepting the help to pick them up. ✨You’re not a failure for not knowing what to do, you’re not a failure for seeking help, you’re not a failure for feeling lost when all you’re trying to do is get your shit together✨
This is me telling you, and myself, please do not give up.
Keep going, keep growing, keep being you.