#edfree

MOST RECENT

Pictured is lunch and dinner❤️
Also had a toast with some oow fat creme cheese and a muffin as snack💞
Eating habits are okay atm
But my brain is killing me
I'm kinda relapsing and also obsessed again with counting cals
The drama with my girlfriend is kinda calming down again and we're good again❤️
On next week's appointment with my therapist we're gonna decide if I'm going into rehab or not...
Wish me luck
#recovery #depression #ana #mia #freedom #happy #changes #healthy #fit #edfree #edfam #bingeeating #ednos #fooddiary #recoveryisworthit #Ilovecarbs #fitfam #mentalhealth #bodypositivity #food #takecare #caring #loving #accepting #acceptyourself #selfcare #selflove #lunch #vegetarian

Some days I just want to quit social media. It’s a lot of work to update, sometimes my content doesn’t reach people and it’s especially painful because I spent a lot of time on it (😫). With social media there’s also so many opportunities to feel rejection or “not good enough” everywhere I look and sometimes I wonder if taking photos for content and all the time that comes with social media, is really contributing to me using my time well or not (sometimes it feels completely wasted). Feelings like... “is this worth it?” 💭 ———————————————————————
I think the truth for me is that it is important for me to share my message. It is important to share about my experiences & what I know about eating disorders, body positivity and mental health. It is important to share my story and discoveries. Because maybe, just maybe it’ll help someone, like it would have helped me - knowing this information years ago. 🤗❤️ It’s also about connecting with people! I think there is a balance between too much social media and working on sharing a message through social media. I often find I want to give it my all, but then feel guilty about how I used my time. Then sometimes I feel “off” and avoid posting for a long time. (Or I spend time preparing a post and then not posting it) because it’s too much mentally at that moment. I am not sure what a happy medium looks like to me yet. But I’m figuring it out... I think. I hope. 😅🙏🏻
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Do you ever feel like this? And ⭐️ MOST OF ALL ⭐️ I really want to know - How do you balance social media and regular life / or / alongside OTHER GOALS? While still working on social media goals? 💭 Do you set boundaries? Do you have no rules? What works for you?! I am so curious! 🙏🏻🤗💕

QUESTION ~ HOW TO LIVE A BOAT DAY ⛵️ after 3 only hours sleep and a night of cocktails 🍹 surfing on the highest waves 🌊 and reaching the purest waters 🙏🏻 IF struggling with a ED ? 👎🏻
#easypeasy ➖ you can’t 🤷🏼‍♀️
BUT THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I DID TODAY INSTEAD 😍✅💣
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GOOD THURSDAY ☀️
after yesterday’s storm ⛈🔙 today has been extraordinary 😎 and hope you will enjoy the shoots ⏩
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recovery wise I’m doing a bit better than the first days even if skipping meals still is too easy 💬 The point is: I’m trying my best and I don’t want to ruin this vacation overthinking and writing { basically hope I will manage and I’m not losing too much 🤞🏻
If anyone is reading: may you send me #edwarrior strength? 🙈 May you tell me if you like these shoots/days/way of posting❓🤗
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One thing is for sure: you can’t live a full life like THIS 😏👆🏻 WITH A EMPTY BELLY / MISTREATING your body 😤 We were born (and we’re CAPABLE) more than barely surviving 😉 ily honeys ❤️ #edrecovery#eatingdisorder#edsoldier#prorecovery#inspiration#realrecovery#newstart#edcommunity#edfree#growstronger #anawho#recovery#positive#recoveryispossible#keepfighting#selfcare#prorecovery#survivor#youcandothis#strongnotskinny#foodisfuel#edwarrior#fighter#loveyourself#bodypositive#selflove

Was für ein schnieke Bild, nicht wahr?😅😂 Ich bin gerade in einer komischen Stimmung....! Mir geht's soo richtig richtig kacke. Nicht so, dass ich sage ich würde mir das Leben nehmen, aber so, dass ich am Ende bin psychisch und mir gleichzeitig bewusst wird, dass ich an allem Schuld bin. Ich allein. Ich habe es zu verantworten, dass es mir so geht. Niemand sonst und auf was warte ich eigentlich? Auf Rettung? Ich darf glücklich sein und leben darf ich auch...!!! Warum ist das eigentlich so schwer? Einfach sagen, so ich blicke nun nur noch nach vorne und fange an ein schönes Leben zu führen und lasse mich nicht mehr von meiner Vergangenheit einholen. Ich bin es doch wert und müsste mein Glück unabhängig von anderen machen! Es ist bloß nicht leicht diese Gedanken umzusetzen...
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#ed #ananomore #edproblems #anorexia #anorexie #anorexianervosa #nervosa #edstruggles #bulimie #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #bulimiarecovery #recoverywin #recovering #recoveryispossible #recovery #schönklinikbadarolsen #strongnotskinny #magersucht #edfam #antianaclub #noana #anaisabitch #edsoldier #edfree #anorexie #edwarrior #Essstörung

While I definitely struggled with the thoughts afterward, I’m pretty proud of myself for smashing this down at social eating at program today!

Bei mir gab es gestern eins von meinen Lieblingsessen zu mittag. Sushiii. 🌚💗
Der Laden, wo wir uns vorher immer Sushi geholt haben, hat vor kurzem leider geschlossen. Ich finde das echt schade, weil es dort so viele unterschiedliche Boxen gab.🍣 Aber dann probiere ich mich jetzt bei dem neuen Laden durch. Abwechslung ist manchmal auch nicht schlecht.😌💕 ~ Mögt ihr eigentlich Sushi ? Ich liebe es 😍
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Heute abend ist bei uns ein kleines Straßenfest und ich werde auf jeden Fall hingehen.🙆 Ich glaube zwar nicht, dass ich viele kenne, aber vielleicht lerne ich ja jemand neues kennen. Ich freue mich schon darauf.🙈
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#ed #edrecovery #fighter #prorecovery #recoverymeal #food #foodblog #fooddiary #foodblogger #minniemaud #selflove #foodrecovery #edfree2018 #strongnotskinny #edfree #beatana #fightana #edfam #recoveryisworthit #tumblr #snack #tumblrfood #sushi #fish #sushilove #sushiliebe #Mittagessen

Maybe it’s not the way you look that is the problem. Maybe it’s not your weight or shape. Maybe it’s not your career, situation or life in general. MAYBE it’s the perfectionist, inflexible standards that you impose on yourself that set you up for dissapointment time and time again. Maybe it’s the way you compare yourself to others, who have a completely different life to you
#eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edrecoveryfamily #adutswithed #edrecoverycommunity #edrecoveryjourney #anarecovery #anawarrior #effyourbodystandards #anorexiarecovery #healthateverysize #miarecovery #selflove #ednosrecovery #healthymindhealthybody #ednoswarrior #miarecovery #youareenough #effyourbeautystandards #fighted #selfesteem #loveyourbody #recovery #mentalhealth #bopo #bodyconfidence #loveyourself #prorecovery #selfconfidence #edfree

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🙅‍♀️(🖕)you #thinspiration 🙅‍♀️
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I used to be part of a pro-eating disorder online community called miafriends (since has been ❌SHUT DOWN❌for good reason). See, in the eating disorder community we would use the names Ana (anorexia) and Mia (bulimia) as terms thrown around with “honor” describing which method we used to stay thin. In that community the thinner you were the BETTER. There was an entire gallery called “thinspiration” with pictures of skeleton-like models along with other forums where we taught each other how to “purge” food more efficiently and effectively, or how to train our minds not to eat at all ☠️
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People would just stop showing up in the group… just to find out weeks later from other members that they had passed away. Sadly, thinking back, it didn’t seem to phase any of us, it’s almost like we all knew we ourselves were headed in that direction too, I remember almost wishing I’d be the next one😔
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I say this because I know what it’s like to be in a VERY UNHEALTHY place, wanting to disappear, so sick with a mind full of self-sabotage but I also say this because God gave me a second chance. .
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I now know why I’m still here today, my passion and my purpose; my mission. I now get to spend my days doing the opposite- creating and building a team and community that supports HEALTHY LIVING- I get to help pair people with exercise and nutrition plans (get them equipped with the methods, tools, resources, etc.) that help them get strong and healthy in a SAFE WAY- I live each day excited to advocate for STRENGTH and FREEDOM. .
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I don’t want another girl growing up thinking she needs to be THIN or another women out there so sick and unhealthy trying to do so. .
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#wcw goes out to my tribe- those that are working alongside me on this mission to promote STRENGTH and FREEDOM from self-sabotage - THANK YOU!!!! I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU!!!
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#strongnotskinny #stronginsideandout #strongaf #selflove #confidence #bringonthemuscle #ichoosehealthy #healing #freedom #edfree #theviplife #freedomadvocate #healthadvocate

Best show of the Fringe and it’s free! (well you know the score). Go see Gary Little and show him some support, the man is hysterical, glad my South African friends got to experience one of my favourite comedians. #edfringe #edfree #garylittle #beehiveinn #comedy #fryingpan

Caught lounging lol

Many people with eating disorders and mental health struggles feel they have something to be ashamed of. Here is a reminder that struggling with an eating disorder is not a flaw or something you need to hide. My breaking the stigma and talking about it, you may help many other people around you 💛⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #prorecovery #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #edfamily #realrecovery #recoveryisworthit #edfighter #anorexia #edsoldier #eatittobeatit #beatana #edfam #ed #recovery #balancednotclean #nourishnotpunish #anorexianervosa #recoveryispossible #ana #2fab4ana #recoverywin #healthynotskinny #foodisfuel #eattolive #edfree #anawarrior

Beach day ☀️ My mom took these pictures without me knowing and honestly the first thing I thought when I saw them was “ASHDKAKIFHWNQ my thighs!!!! i’m a pale ghost! i’m huge!!” But then I looked a little closer and saw that I actually look so happy. Genuinely happy. And I think that’s more important than the size of my thighs. Nothing else really matters if you aren’t happy. That was something I never was in the depths of my eating disorder. I might not always love my body now, but I am grateful for what it can do for me. For how it allows me to fully experience this beautiful adventure called life. I know none of this would be possible if it wasn’t for recovery.

Over the moon!! Despite a few slip ups I’ve still managed to get a good loss in my first week!
Treated myself to a McDonald’s tonight because I was feeling crap and I’m off plan tomorrow but I’ll be straight back on it Friday

Forever super nervous about social eating today at group.

When you work full time and are building your own business on the side, you’ll almost always feel short on time. -
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I had a good run changing up my workouts from mainly at home to spending more time in the gym, but right now I’m recognizing I need as much time as I can get! Although a car ride to the gym and back can fit in my schedule once in a while, I’ve decided to go back to exercising in my living room so I can get it done & over with sooner rather than later 💪🏼
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Right now my main focus is helping my online coaching clients to the best of my ability which requires more of my time and energy. Just like I am committed to my health and wellness I am also committed to delivering value to the world every single day which is why my exercise routine will have to change!
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My health and fitness will always be my main priority, however the approach I take to get there changes based off the other values in my life & same should be for you! What matters to you most? What matters to you second? How can you arrange them both so they can fit into your schedule and support one another? -
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Send me a message if you need help balancing what’s important to you in your life❣️

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