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MOST RECENT

CHALLENGE!!! Had loads of calories to make up so I knew I was going to have to challenge myself . I had my usual protein yoghurt with a Breyer’s ice cream bar !!! I was honestly shaking while I was eating this but it was so yummy . Guilt is sky high now so I’m planning to just sleep it off . Night my loves xx

TW- Only reached 1200 today 😭
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Dinner was so much, but really, like to much, it's a huge plate... It kinda felt like a binge or something, but that's just ana speaking i guess? Had a super hard dance class after dinner so i needed the energy tbh. When i came back i had this chinois thing and it's so good! It's a french pastry with cream.😋😋💕
Xoxo
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Breakfast: strawberry protein quark
Lunch: a bag of sweet coconut & vanilla popcorn and a cola zero
Dinner: to much rice pilav with 2 mini tortillas
N/snack: 'chinois'

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#AfternoonSnack was some crackers and chicken and #EveningSnack is yogurt, biscuits and some caramelised onion crackers 😊⁣

Going to try as hard as I can tomorrow to get back on the recovery track, going to aim for 3 decent meals and then snacks if I can manage them, build up again xx⁣

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Dinner tonight was scary big !! 2 quorn fillets , a half portion of Bombay potatoes and 70g of sweetcorn . But even with this there is no way I can meet my calories even with a challenging n/s . I honestly have no idea what else to say apart from that you are all beautiful and deserve so much more than this shitty illness . Keep fighting everyone xx
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Afternoon snack when I got home was an alpro pudding and a protein bar . Family therapy was actually the most pointless thing!!! We literally drove 35minutes to talk for like 5 minutes . I tried refusing to be weighed because I don’t feel comfortable with her but she insisted. She said I lost some weight but I don’t know how much . I blamed it on uncalibrated scales but I’m not really surprised tbh . I’m taking the dog out now it’s finally stopped raining !!! See y’all later xx
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Quick lunch before family therapy, which only me and mum are going to lmao 😂 2 slices of little toast with 30g of marmalade . Haven’t got time to write much but I’ll do an update afterwards even though I think I’m going to refuse to be weighed . Have a nice afternoon everyone xx
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[ lunchie ]
rice with beans and frozen peas, corn and carrot🥕
This used to be one of my fav foods haha
Hopefully today i can go grocery shopping with my mom cause i want to pick out some snacks and stuff:)




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#Breakfast is my usual cereal and tomatoes with a can of Pepsi⁣

Finding recovery just impossible at the moment, so down and low it’s hurting 😔 wanna hide away from the world, I can barely even bring myself to speak to anybody today, just want to be left alone I guess. Recovery is just so hard, and no one understands unless they’ve felt it too ⁣

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Morning snack was half of this. I’m so annoyed with myself I knew I couldn’t do it on my own and now my mum will never be able to trust me again . I guess it’s just too soon to be in charge of my own food . My mum will be home for lunch so that will be ok . I guess I’ll see you then , have a wonderful day xx
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[ quick breakfast <3 ]
breakfast was an Alpro go on blueberry, this rye and rice pastry + unpictured 1/2 banana with peanut butter
so this morning i had a huge math exam so i had to eat a large breakfast that my brain would work. i was super nervous but it went ok so thats good!! I did the test for the max time 3h and 30min ew •



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Breakfast this morning was more oats !!! I had moma plain porridge with 2 teaspoons of sweetener. I’m loving warm porridge in the morning at the moment because I’ve got a shitty cold and it’s cold outside 😂I’m being left alone for 3 hours today which is going to be tough because I’m eating my morning snack unsupervised!! We’ll have to see how that goes ?? Trying to distract myself best as I can while she’s gone with school work and maybe a live . Anyway have a lovely day everyone xx
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Und hier noch mehr leckers Essen was ich auf den spanischen Straßen die letzten 10 Tage gegnossen habe 😍
Ich habe mich wirklich ein bisschen in diese Empanadas verliebt und möchte sie unbedingt mal demnächst zuhause nachmachen 🙈 ob das was wird? 😅
Naja ich bin jetzt am Flughafen und warte auf meinen Flieger zurück nach Deutschland 😊 es war zwar super schön hier, aber jetzt freue ich mich auch wieder auf zuhause, mein gewohntes Umfeld, mein Bett, und vor allem meinen Hund 😍🙈 was vermisst ihr immer am meisten wenn ihr weg seid?

Night snack was the usual protein yoghurt with 24g nuts . My mum says I need to have something different tomorrow so I’m not sure what I’ll have 😳 Had a chilled out evening watching some tv cuddled up my doggy . I know I say this every night snack post but I really want a good night sleep tonight , very unlikely though because my head is all over the place rn . Night everyone, see you all tomorrow xx

TW - reached 1250 today , it’s been a hard day 😪
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PTW: (old photo /tbt)because I’m having reallyyyyy bad body image. I would give literally anything to just lose weight and get back down to my lowest weight and smaller. It was the only time I have been truly happy in a long long time. I found these photos that were taken around 6 months ago the day I was admitted. I wanted them so I could post transformation photos but now I just find myself scrolling though them and missing the time when I wasn’t completely gigantic. I went to the adults edu to have a snack and EVERYONE was thinner than me. EVERYONE. I didn’t end up having a snack there but I did have a panic attack. I’m not going there. I am legitimately contemplating running away on the day I am transferred there but a part of me doesn’t want to face the repercussions if/when I do get caught... at least i could get a day or two of not eating though?? Idk... I’m so so so scared. My birthday is in 10 days. I’m supposed to be moving in 7. I want to prolong it, a few more days because everything is happening so fast and it’s all too much for me and I just want to get out of hospital and I don’t want to be as disgusting and fat as I currently am. I’m embarrassed. I’m a whale. I want to be small and boney and I don’t know what to do. PTW over: I hope you’re all doing okay? Thank you so much for all of the support and lovely messages, they mean the world to me. Remember my DMs are always open to each and every one of you.☺️

Dinner tonight was 68g of quorn fajita strips with 3 smiles and 60g of green beans. Having a tough night eating wise , I’ve got a weigh in with my family therapist instead of my normal nurse and I’m really stressed about that . There’s no way I can reach my calories today or even close . I’m in such a downward spiral I don’t know how to stop it . Anyway have a nice evening all xx
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#Snack is yogurt and biscuits, also got some porridge and a rice pudding for later 😊⁣

Finding eating a huge struggle today, having to force every bite 😔 it’s really hard because I was so proud of all the progress id made too xx⁣

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Some further impressions of my traveling 🤗 on the first pic you can see my today’s #lunch It’s called ,,Kaiserschmarren” which is something like scrambled pancakes with jam 😍❣️ so delicious. The fourth pic shows yesterday’s #dinner, a classic hamburger 😊 picture five is Sunday’s dinner ( Looks weird but it’s just spinach that was mixed into the noodle dough ) and then today’s #breakfast , which was a bun with cheese and a cup of flakes ( had another fuller one ) 🤗 tomorrow is the last day before driving back home and I’m already pissed when thinking of the 14 hours of driving in the bus😖 #anorexiafighter #anorexiekampf #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafight #magersuchtrecovery #essstörungrecovery #foodisworthit#prorecovery#recoverymeal#magersuchtkampf#edfighter#edfight#food#mealdiary

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