So I had one of those snacking mood nights and now I'm lying in bed and I feel so gross 😥 I had some dry cereal, maybe about 2 or 3 cups, a big orange, a rice cake with peanut butter, and some frozen berries. I'd just finish one thing and feel like I'd have to get up and get the next. 😓
My calorie intake for the day was still pretty low as I just had a salad for dinner, some veggies and hummus for lunch, and some watermelon for breakfast, and snacked on some pickles and dry cereal through the day... but I feel so gross and fat after snacking at night, even if what I eat is really healthy. It's a habit a really really want to break and I just want to not even think about food at night time but right now it's the ONLY thing I can think about.
I hope real recovery will mean not craving snacks at night. I know what I ate wasn't even that bad or unhealthy but I still feel like I need to punish myself. This disease is shit!! My heart goes out to all of you guys struggling with recovery. 💕