It’s taken me 25 years battling against food to realize that FOOD is NOT MY ENEMY!
Because I’ve dieted, starved, used pills and an insane amount of exercise, binged and purged and everything in between to control my outter body, I thought food was my enemy.
When in reality, it’s what’s going on INSIDE that had me turn to all of the above.
I used FOOD or NO FOOD, beating my body up, pills, etc to fill the voids I perceived in my life.
I thought wearing smaller jeans would make people like me. That running 5-10 miles at 3am and -30 below zero would get me attention and admiration.
Food made me temporarily feel good when I felt completely alone and unwanted.
I used exercise and food to have a sense of control. To give me what I didn’t feel I had in life. But, it wasn’t until I realized that I needed to fix my roots if I wanted my leaves to flourish.
I had to start figuring out WHY I starved myself.
WHY I punished my body and joints with hours and hours of exercise a day.
WHY did I closet eat or eat in the middle of the night when nobody was watching only to make myself throw up?
You can diet for the rest of your life. You can try every new workout on the planet. You can lose weight, and reach your ultimate goal..... BUT!! You will just be putting bandages on your roots temporarily until you learn to heal them permanently.
I think everyone is a little bit fu*#ed up, and that’s normal. We all break from time to time.
But figuring out WHAT is causing you to break, then working on fixing the ROOT OF THE ISSUE is the only way to permanently change.
But you have to do the work. Acknowledge you have an issue, then get to work. Hire someone to help you. Become your own science and shrink. Start experimenting with different tactics and find what works for you.
Don’t give up! The first 100 tactics you try may not work. But if you really want to change, you’ll keep working at it.
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