Lol i was in love with me best friend for like 5 years and i finally told her last summer. And i told her bc i thought she loved me back too but she didnt. Shes straight loL. So i havnt seen her since. And that was my first heart break and it was so sad and i was so sad. That happene like end of july. Then school started and i was stil pretty sad. And like i didnt even know how to talk to girls at the time or even identify who was gay or not. so i downloded tinder. Because my gaydar sucks ass. But then on Halloween , my best friend that i met here in college overdosed on ecstasy at Escape (rave).And honestly that broke my heart again because i thought he was gonna die. He is my best friend that i met freshman year of college and hes like a brother to me. I only hangout with like 2-3 people because i like long and real friendships. And anthony ( my friend that overdosed) is one of those people. So yeah and then i failed like 2 of my classes but honestly i couldnt give a fuck because i was in such a bad place like i think i had PTSD. Because when anthony overdosed it was just him and i at the moment and i was also on Ecstasy. So when he seized infront of me i was completely clueless and helpless and i just had a mental break down that whole night and it was honestly THE WORST night of my life. Anthony ODed on October 31 2016. Yeeeahh. He was in a coma for a month which was the hardest month of my life. If you look at my pics hes my totem. But this year is a lot better. Anthony is still in recovery. Hes out of the hospital and taking therapy from his home. No i havent. But my beat friend Brandon was always there for me and my parents. Brandon and anthony are the best friends. We're like the trio lol. He really could have died but he didnt. The nurse even told us that he could be a vegetable. But he woke up and is gonna make a 95% recovery 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🏼Brandon is the one to the left of me and anthony is the huge face totem haha Its was really tough but hes okay now! We visit him everyweek.