Honestly, a couple months ago I would’ve just posted the top picture because it looks good. Tan, kind of lean, some visible muscles.
I would have never thought about posting the bottom picture, even though they are ony 5 seconds apart.
I’m learning every day to accept my body, even on the days where it’s hard.
I had a slight meltdown on Saturday night after trying on a couple different outfits. I sat on the floor and just vented to Donnie and the words that came out of his mouth were incredible. A little background about my Fiance – He’s 6’4, very thin, and has had a 6 pack his whole life without trying. He sat next to me, shirtless, and said “Look, my body has changed over the past couple years. I have little stomach rolls and my abs are not as visible when I sit down. This is normal and it’s okay.”
For some reason, this opened my eyes so much.
Sure, I’m not as lean as I was once and that’s okay. I’ve noticed that naturally I hold more weight in the winter and then my body evens out in the summer because of how active I am.
I think it’s important to see the changes in your body just as we see the seasons change.
I have goals in my life but they are not my life.
I think it's perfectly fine to practice self love and body positivity but still have goals set.
My goals are not to specifially lose a certain amount of weight or body fat, but to be comfortable and happy in my body. To balance work, gym, diet, my relationship, and my friendships. To not burn myself out mentally and physically but to not lock myself away in my room and do nothing.