What’s that? You didn’t want to see up my nose? Too bad!
So, life update. I realised today that I haven’t taken a break from binding in over two weeks, so I’m doing that today, and boyyy the dysphoriaaaaAAAaAa!
I’m pretty up to date with my uni work, and I’m actually super proud of myself considering this time last sem I was back in hospital! And on the topic of ED stuff I hit a milestone in intuitive eating today! Hospital drilled into my head that I have to eat everything on my place even if I’m super full. It’s been really hard for me to get rid of that mentality, and so I would eat past the point of being full, feel guilty, and sometimes it would trigger a b/p, and sometimes I wouldn’t eat everything, feel like a failure, and sometimes it would trigger a b/p. But today! I reached the point of comfortable fullness, was able to recognise that if I get hungry later I can have the rest of it then, and was able to put the rest of the food away! *high fives self*