Went out to dinner with my family for my brother’s 18th birthday last night 🍸👫✨ I’d been mentally preparing myself days before, having looked up the menu and setting a silent food challenge for myself 🏆 Although I LOVE pasta gnocchi is something I always avoid. Mainly because it’s made from potato which is one of my MOST scary and difficult foods to eat 🥔 But I wanted to try and break this fear and broaden my pasta horizons 🙌🏻
So at the table when my family asked what I wanted I confidently and I said the gnocchi, they all looked at me quite shocked. It gave me a feeling of pride in myself, like “yep that’s right I’m going to do this” 💪🏻 but at the same time made me doubt my abilities....When it came it looked beautiful (as you can see) and tasted exquisite 🍝✨ So soft and delicate, I actually didn’t know that was how gnocchi was supposed to taste! With other meals I have I can usually eat and enjoy it during with the mental struggles following, however this was was hard to physically get through. I finished, but when the dessert menu came out I lost it. I had put all my planning into the gnocchi that I haven’t been considered if I would have a dessert 😳 I was overwhelmed and I had to sneak off to the bathroom to allow myself to let out my emotions. Most of my family didn’t even notice I had a moment until later on, which was probably good. I had to force my mind to just accept what I had eaten and let it go, because my night wasn’t purely about that bowl of gnocchi, but celebrating my brother turning 18 🎉 And I wasn’t going to allow myself to ruin the evening for him.
Afterwards we all went bowling and played laser tag which was so much fun 😄 I learnt from the night out that sometimes a meal is nothing more that just that! One of our millions of meals in our lifetime. Although its lovely to spent some or many if we’re lucky with the people we love, there are other moments in life which can be more defining and should be more memorable 💫 And in the end WE decide which aspects of an evening we choose to remember it by. And for last night, I choose the fun and laughter I had with my family being silly and playing games together 🎳❤️ Happy bday @jimibaruta