I don't believe in being at the wrong place, at the wrong time. Although I may not like it sometimes, I believe there's always a reason why I am at a certain place at a specific time. Because otherwise, I wouldn't have been there, right?
So I had a training the other day. I had spontaneously registered when I was stressed-out at home for a while, desperately seeking ways out of the state of darkness I found myself in. But when the training came closer I just found out I was having a burn-out. The training didn't feel right for that moment and I decided to ask for a reschedule, because canceling was no option.
So the new date came and it still didn't feel good, but in fact a lot doesn't during a burn-out, so I decided to give it a go.
Know the feeling that within a few minutes you just KNOW you are "at the wrong place, at the wrong time"? Well, I just knew. And because of that, my filters gave me all the confirmation, that's how it works.
But because I truly believe in "no coincidences" which -for me- means no "wrong" timing and places, I went searching within... I didn't get the answer right then but I felt the only good thing to do for me was leave. A difficult decision for me, because during lunch break the trainers weren't present to tell I was leaving and I'd already paid the entire amount. For a moment it made me feel stupid, sneaky and naughty. But walking away it suddenly hit me. The reason(s!) why I had to be there that morning!
It was about choosing ME, without having to justify myself, to explain why... Nothing naughty about it, I even had paid! And it was about self-confidence. Since a long time I felt some self-confidence again, because I felt I would be able to give a course like this myself, a feeling I kind of lost because of my burn-out. And maybe the most important thing... I learned that I already knew the training wasn't right for me soon after I registered, I just didn't know what the signs were, how to recognize them. But now I know I can rely on my own deeper "knowing". So, putting it all together... I was EXACTLY at the right place, at the right time. And it was definitely worth the money.