I think the cup brings out the colour in my eyes the same way the caffeine brings out the crazy.
Change is really unsettling for me. It makes me tense. Brings my shoulders up and tightens the knots in my back. My breathing is shallow and my jaw clenches. My thoughts and feelings are rapid and heightened. I have a hard time discerning how I feel and why. I'm hard on myself about this. I don't think I should feel that way. I miss everything I've lost. I fear everything I may in the future lose. I have unsettled thoughts about the present, as everything is moving out of place and not yet into a new. This space is uncomfortable for me. I am not present. And I'm sorry.
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