Another pic with my selfmade dreadfalls. Let me be real for a second: I wasn't sure if I could actually wear these outside and deal with the looks I would get. People usually stare, but most of the time I just pretend, that it doesn't affect me. Fake it till you make it, right? But let me tell you, I haven't had this much anxiety in a long time and I was so happy when I finally got home that day. But I was also proud of myself for not giving up.
I guess what I want to say with this is that you shouldn't have to decide whether you want to feel good in your skin or blend in with society. It's sad to say but I am kind of used to get weird looks and degrading comments and there are days when I just don't give a fuck and nobody can touch me. But on other days I can hear every single remark, every chuckle, every look and I just want to disappear and not be seen by anyone.
I guess this is just how people are but I refuse to give up. And I don't want anybody else to give up, so please wear whatever the fuck you want to wear. Wear the brightest lipstick you can find, dress in you favorite clothes, put on as much jewelry as you can fit on your body and wear you hair like you want to. Do what makes you happy.
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