Teddy just fell asleep in his bed, in my arms, and it was wonderful. He isn't sick, he didn't need me to, he wasn't crying or cross. I had no 'reason' to lay in his bed other than that he wanted me to. He asked me if I would stay in his bed with him for a while and I did. I laid down next to him and he put his arms around my neck. He breathed me in and stroked my hair. We laid next to each other silently. I listened as his breathing changed, feeling his tiny little muscles relax. I watched as his eyes slowly became heavier and the blinks became longer. I laid still and I watched. I didn't think about work, finances, the to-do list or the unanswered emails. I didn't think about anything other than him. And how incredibly lucky I am to be his Mummy. I just looked at my beautiful baby boy, breathed him in and held him tight.
Life is busy, life is fast, and it passes us by so quickly. They grow so quickly. Too quickly. We so desperately want them to sleep. To hit the milestone of sleeping through the night. To self soothe. To not need us. But if we had all the time in the world, nothing to rush to, nothing to do, nowhere to be, would we feel the same?
Tonight I'll be falling asleep feeling nothing by gratitude and contentment.
No parenting book will tell you to let your three year old fall asleep in your arms. But from one parent to another I'm suggesting you do! (Even if it's just the once) Not because they are sick. Not because they are crying. Not because you're too tired to climb back out the bed! Just because it's wonderful! ❤️ ~Jen