The husbandman is the first partaker... 2 Timothy 2:6
I came to 'do' others but now, I'm the one being done.
On one of the occasions where I was invited to speak, a young girl asked me an intelligent question,- "Why did you get married at age 19?" It wouldn't be the first time I'd be asked that question but it would be the first time I'd receive it constructively; and that began the search.
I made the decision to get married, no doubt(I wasn't forced). What informed that decision? What led to my making it? I started asking myself series of serious soul-searching questions... sending my conscious mind on a journey and yet, nothing!
The first step to solving a problem is to recognize that it does exist- Zig Ziglar.
At this point, I knew I needed professional help. If I do not find it, there's every likelihood that I'll watch it repeat in my children and not even recognize it.
And so, during a tête-à-tête at an event with @iamambyounganyanwu , I brought it up.
Young Anyanwu (YA)- How can you not know?
Me: I can't seem to remember. You think I do know it?
YA: Of course, you do.
Me: 'I'd like for you to tell me, please', I pleaded.
YA: (With a confident smile) I won't be the one to tell you. During my session with you, you will be the one to tell me. It will come out from you.
Me: (Intrigued) How soon can we start?
By the first session, the events unfolded... My eyes welled up in tears as the story flowed through me. ...I must have been 17 at the time, in secondary school, i remember it all so well. It was a Sunday- a normal day that started off well but unfolded into,... well... This is one story that is sooo long gone it shouldn't matter anymore but apparently, it didn't need my permission to. It just did.
Further research on this taught me that the unconscious mind continues to influence our behavior and decisions, even though we are unaware of their underlying influences.
Awareness starts the process of change. Awareness, however, is NOT change. Hence, I'll be attending the Family Systems Engineering Course where I'll be doing a lot of 'breaking' and 'fixing'
What better time to be alive than such a time as this!