Honestly i really don't like when i see people say they got into a kink because they "didnt want to be normal" or they "didnt want to be vanilla". A lot of people struggle with their sexual desires. Wondering why do i like this? Am i a freak? Will anyone ever accept me or love me? Being afraid some one will find out and hate you when they once loved you, or never even considering that you would have a partner who would not only accept and understand, but actually want to participate and play with you. Feeling like you're a freak isn't fun. having abnormal sexual desires isn't always fun. Not being able to get off to "regular" porn no matter how hard you try can be a blow to your self esteem. And you only try to watch "regular porn" because you want to actually feel normal. But it doesn't work. It's a lot of work to accept yourself, and a lot of effort to open up to someone. Though, when you do, it can ease any harsh feelings you have twords yourself, and help open your eyes to the fact that being "abnormal" in your sexual needs isn't bad or as unusual as you once thought.
I didn't choose the kink life, the kink life chose me.