Life is funny and tragic in that you never know the lifespan or depth of the treasured relationships in your life. Some will betray you and cause you the most pain and others that you may have taken for granted will shine true and loyal to you. My gratitude comes from many undeserving friends who have stuck by me as I frolic away chasing colorful butterflys and such. When they could have applied on me that right to just give up and move on. My closest people know me as a very selfish dude. Yet they love me anyway. It almost seems like that was what needed to happen for me to trust people again when my heart was murdered by a "friend". The action of love is done without expectation of repayment. It is the riskiest of all. It also has the biggest reward if you can manage to learn to get above being stomped to the ground. As such spiritual pursuits are so counterintuitive to the nature and physics of this world. It is a whole new adventure for those who would explore beyond the border of the physical. If you dare that path is there through the door of the darkest night.