I seriously have been putting this off 😭 i am so upset with where i have let myself go. 2017 was a tough year for me... just let so many excuses break me then it all compiled when Brayden got hurt and broke his femur. Then followed by his surgery i lost 6 pounds in a very unhealthy way. I was sickly on my way to having confidence with my looks and how my clothes fit. And then i gave up on me and completely focused on my family with Braydens recovery and wound care and needing complete assistance in everything. Then not to mention 2 adoptions in 2 weeks so I ate anything and everything 😢 I completely forgot who I was and what I was fighting for. I have had fear, struggles, depression, anxiety, excuses that have all held me back. I have allowed all of that to come back and it has been crippling... I am tired of living this way. It hurts, it’s scary and has made my urge for pills come back, I sleep a lot, I cry a lot, feels like i have lost many friends and i have gave up on me.
Today i took my breakup pictures. This girl from 2017 is gone. I don’t want to ever look back at that girl. I have said this before but this time it is for real. I have to find me and take the time for me!! I cannot keep letting things cripple me. I have talked with my husband and told him that this can’t keep happening! I am done using food as my crutch for stress and emotional eating. I have really dig deep the past two weeks mentally to evaluate and focus on what i want for me and i am ready for this!!! I need to feel better in my Mind and in my skin!! Stay tuned for a new, happier and healthier me 😘♥️💥👊🏼