When it hits, it hits.
The negativity has been using every trick in the book to convince me it's time to go back. It wants to convince me I've had my fun. I've enjoyed all I can enjoy. The vacation is over and now it's time to return to real life. The addiction of a sidekick follows right behind to remind me of the comforting feeling I'll have when I go back.
All I can do is use what I have and what I know to keep fighting this negativity and hate.