#deongarth

MOST RECENT

YES! Nemand ist hier aus Starbucks! Nobody is here from Starbucks and totally get to cool my mind down for at least fünf minuten! I have a mindset of speaking German when I'm excited or surprised of something.
Seriously, if you're a loner or an introvert like I am along having Autism, you know how it's like being around people. I just can't stand being near a crowd otherwise my brain will start to get hurt from all the noise, talking, and just feeling isolated. It's just who I am.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #introvertproblems #introvert #loner #gaysingle #starbucks #vlog #glendale #phoenix #arizona #az #phx #peaceandquiet #pokemon #pokeball #outfitoftheday #bbq #deutschland

Please keep this on the downlow and not get too excited if you seem him but... I ACTUALLY MET ISIAH AT STARBUCKS TODAY! 😇 This isn't real nor does my heart know how to feel. I'm thinking I was the only one who noticed him and just want to give him a huge hug for what he has done in his rapping career.

If any of you are Phoenixians / Arizonans who may listen to rap, you definitely know who I'm talking about.
He's so BRAVE and has a BEAUTIFUL SOUL for what he goes through and want him to have the best life he can ever get.
Hope that all of you could read the back and he just gave it to me after I mentioned to his friends that he's a YouTuber. I'm a YouTuber myself and need to make a video about this soon!
My day has sorta been a mess let alone the rain but this really makes me see that life does have a bright light when you least expected. 💖
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #isiah #rapper #celebrity #hiphop #music #dj #inspirationalquotes #childrenshospital #celebrities #famouspeople #starbucks #vlog #unexpected #dreams #goals #mentalhealth #beautiful #stories #phx #phoenix #az #arizona

AWW, WIE SCHÖN! ICH SEHEN 2 FUGLEN! 🐣🐤 I basically spelled birds in Norwegian since I need to practice my Viking languages right after we move out which I don't want to do but have no choice. The mother has to be out to travel to get them food ( hopefully ), and they been in front of our apartment for like 3 weeks now.

Heaven forbid if anyone tries to ruin these birds' home right after we leave. Life can be unfair and brutal but try my best to take it day by day.
Also, I was heading out for my walk in my Pokéball outfit while it's cool and cloudy out today.
Das wetter ist bewolkt und nicht heiß für once. 😏
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #baby #babybirds #adorable #animals #pigeons #eagles #mothernature #babyanimals #kawaii #africanamerican #chinese #jamaican #arizona #phoenix #megaman #pokeball #pokemon #outfitoftheday #anime #manga #deutschland

Another lazy drawing! Just to ease my stress, overthinking, and bipolar depression, I decided to do my first gaming sketch of Ice Climbers from Smash Bros.! 👫
Growing up with Smash Bros., the series helped me survive throughout school and my isolation as a hobby I like to play along developing an easier focus of movements mentally to the outside world.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #iceclimbers #smashbros #ultimate #nintendoswitch #supersmashbros #gaming #nintendo #anime #manga #drawing #sketch #art #project #japanese #asian #eskimo #jamaican #arizona #depression #socialanxiety #pokemon #pokeball

Just want to say something after walking in 106°F to Starbucks. YouTube isn't about just making reactions, having the most subscribers and treating smaller channels with less respect which most people seem to look at. I just don't understand why.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #walking #exercise #hotday #sunnyday #june #rant #youtuber #youtuberproblems #mentalhealth #menshealth #mentalillness #socialanxiety #autismawareness #introvert #arizona #arizonaflag

It's just a shame in human society that depression is seen as an excuse, a myth, or not valid like other illnesses. With my mum and I having to move by next month and getting little sleep, it's been harsh. Also, I had to block another user who doesn't seem to understand what I go through either and everyone changes to the point I only care about myself. I should only care about myself most of the time but still. In conclusion, depression should not make a person have less worth of being loved / supported. So many people in this world doesn't understand that.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #depression #bipolardisorder #autismawareness #loneliness #suicideisnotajoke #fearofchanges #socialanxiety #ptsd #introvert #geek #nerd #life #lifeisstrange #nothappy #movingout #fakefriends

Who's more important? Me, as a human being, or a Nickelodeon show that everyone tells me to upload on my YouTube channel all the time?
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #selfharm #cutting #suicide #depression #nofriends #loneliness #cartoon #mentalhealth #menshealth #mentalillness #socialanxiety #ptsd #autismawareness

Before I get started to rant on how I've been feeling lately, let's talk about... SUPER SMASH BROS. ULTIMATE FOR THE NINTENDO SWITCH!!! 🔥 😨 😬 I really want to scream to the top of my lungs seeing the gameplay for the first time and want to tear up a puddle of water for living in this genration! 😇

The graphics look stunning like PS4 graphics for one thing, the SFX are on point, the voices are just heaven to my ears, and don't get me started with the roster! 😣
Without Smash Bros., I probably would have taken my life eons ago since I am pretty much a shy introvert who has autism, no real friends, and relies on Nintendo for my mental health and learning skills. 💖 Also, we're forced to move again to another home so there are a lot of weight going on in my life right now. CAN'T WAIT UNTIL ITS RELEASE! DOMO ARIGATO NINTENDO! 🙏
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #nintendo #nintendoswitch #e3 #hype #smashbros #ultimate #fighting #gaming #ike #pokemon #splatoon #legendofzelda #japanese #dutch #german #mentalhealth #menshealth #socialanxiety #introvert #youtube

This week has been quite traumatic and stressful which is why I don't got on here anymore. Just want to give a heads up on mental health, I'm currently 6 days free of self-harm which is cutting my wrists from tense stress along not having people understanding what I go through.
Also, there has been much stress on my heart and brain ( mostly heart ) because of us having to find a home to live unless we're lucky to stay where we are at the moment. I don't need anything toxic comments because it's impossible to be happy / joyful all the time because that's not only creepy but unhealthy. 😮
Oh yes, my face looks older and all ashy because of not getting enough sleep, grooming myself, and been out in the 104°F heat. Hey, I have to do what I have to do for my studies and to support my mum right?
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #stress #ptsd #autismawareness #introvert #bipolar #trustissues #pokemon #pokeball #outfitoftheday #phoenix #arizona #hotday #beachday #africanamerican #chinese #jamaican #insomnia #suicideisnotajoke #starbucks

Welp. This is a tour of our new house? Hopefully not because it isn't what I expected and that it's far from the stores that I need or usually walk to.
Not going to lie, I had an anxiety attack looking at this house and would be quite upset of us moving here. My mum wanted to find a cheaper place to live even though this place is still far from not only my Starbucks but for her work still. I'm pretty much in shock at this point.

Life is very dreadful and suspenseful if you can ask me. 😮
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #housetour #tour #momandson #family #vlog #panicattack #anxiety #stress #ptsd #autismawareness #fearofchanges #africanamerican #chinese #jamaican #phoenix #arizona #desert #valley

And this is why I don't like being involved within The Loud House community anymore because of people like this @tlh.larsloud1 who wouldn't stop messaging me at night by texting "hey" which scares me.
I understand a person like me is a fan of the show but not this much. It seems his instagram page is a little too dark yet obsessed for me to follow him let alone talking to him and got problems of my own. Just want to share for anyone who does follow this show, please be aware of this user. He seems to not be all in there and likes to message me around the same time every night which seems to be like 3 nights now.
PS: I just blocked him btw. Some users need to understand that if you get ignored, you have to understand that's the message you're going to receive either you disagree or not.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #creepy #fans #fanboy #obsession #addiction #harassment #privacy #anime #manga #weirdo #stalker #mentalhealth #menshealth #mentalillness #socialanxiety #depression #autismawareness

I'M BACK FOR ANOTHER ANIME SKETCH! ✏💭💡 After struggling with my loneliness as usual along my PTSD, autism, and bipolar episodes, I decided to sketch a classic Anime that seems to be way underrated!
Can anyone guess who he is? HE'S SUCH A HOTTIE! 😶 I wanted to age him at 16 when he's in the middle of puberty and somehow have an attraction for guys who go through puberty and that are very tall of course along facial hair. It's just a preference of mine and the Smiley Emoji is part of my Keychain after my Moltres one ripped off. xD
PS: He's from Fooly Cooly (FLCL) and this is from Season 1 since Progressive just aired on Toonami yesterday. 😇

#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #foolycooly #flcl #フリクリ #japanese #anime #manga #drawing #sketch #art #project #highschool #sweet16 #puberty #nostalgia #naota #starbucks #introvert #lonely #geek #nerd #autismawareness #menshealth

Seriously!? I found a quarter and a dime on the ground in front of a Dutch Bros. that we live at as I head to Starbucks this morning. Not to mention the high is supposed to be around 102°F which is quite average this time of year but must be a sign! 😰
I even found a dime yesterday around the spot as well and this really helps my mum and I struggling to pay the bills. We do our best to keep pushing forward and haven't been on here lately because of how many 2-faced users there are.
PS: A Quarter = 25 Cents and a Dime = 10 Cents in US Dollars. ☺💰💲💵 #deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #keepyourheadup #hardworkpaysoff #money #quarters #dimes #us #unitedstates #currency #dollars #hotday #sunnyday #dutchbros #starbucks #phoenix #arizona #desert #valley #morningwalk #mentalhealth #menshealth #socialanxiety

This was from the 16th. of May which was almost 2 weeks ago right after Mother's Day ended. I know everyone on here seems to bash me because of my mental illnesses but those people are dark and inhuman. If any of you can't respect that, please avoid looking at my feed by unfollowing me.
Other than that, I bought my mum a Wonderwoman shirt and a Pokéball shirt for myself since I earned something special at the time.
#deongarth #mumandson #vlog #bathroom #brushingteeth #healthy #parents #mothersday #wonderwoman #pokeball #pokemon #anime #manga #superheroes #phoenix #arizona #depression #socialanxiety #mentalhealth #menshealth

I see why I'm a lost cause. I apologize for all of you to see me be a human on Instagram and not showing my highlights and being all flashy and perfect. Not sure who to believe at this point. People say you should be all positive on social media and it is basically your fault if people harass you or that you have friends that betrayed you. Yes, I'm broken and a messed up human being born on this Earth. I'm sorry for being here. My bipolar depression, autism, ptsd, suicidal thoughts, cutting my wrists, and getting meltdowns are my fault and deserve to be stoned or having a life sentence in a North Korea prison. I'm sorry for existing. I should have been faking my happiness by posting smiles, act like Logan Paul and go partying and be all perfect. That's what everyone wants to see in this generation.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #worthless #nobody #hopeless #stupid #ugly #retarded #weirdo #nofriends #introvert #autismawareness #bipolardisorder #lonely #dark #scared #black #nothing #lgbt #bullying #selfharm #cutting #iamsorry #anxiety

I'll have to accept the fact I'll be dying than everyone on this site way before they do. Go ahead mock me if you like. I'm giving you the consent because life is strange. I'm very scared right now, no one understands that social anxiety can be harsh to be around people, being an introvert, having autism, and bipolar depression.
Also, I'm scared to even leave and my mind is all blank. You all are above me and don't say you have problems. You're showing your highlights which means you don't have a right to express them because you always seem to lie and think mental health is a game. Well, depression isn't along anorexia which I experienced once and isolation. As for me, I'm putting up a fake smile because that's what instagram is all about right? Also, I haven't eaten in almost 2 days because of this condition so I need to be punished for breathing on this earth. I didn't asked to be here.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #depression #bipolardisorder #worthless #nobody #thisisme #nofriends #socialanxiety #introvert #geek #nerd #autism #bipolar #mentalhealth #menshealth #mentalillness #lifeisstrange #fakesmile #megaman #socks #starbucks

I totally forgotten what lazy drawing number was on but let's just say #27: Lol xD
After the incident earlier today at Starbucks, I decided to do another Loud House sketch but in Tagalog since The Philippines are obsess with this show somehow! 😰
Now, I didn't got the idea of this design from Deviantart but it's from a user named "RecoverMagic" and remade my own title of this comic. ✏💭 Lynn: SIPA ANG PUTBOL LINCOLN! LAGNAT!
Lincoln: DIYABLO! TALAGA LYNN!? BUMARIL! AHHH!! TRANSLATION: KICK THE BALL LINCOLN! SIKE!
DANGIT! REALLY LYNN!? SHOOT! AHHH!! #deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #lincolnloud #lynnloud #football #futbol #philippines #filipino #pinoy #guam #hawaii #sketch #art #project #school #sports #activities #geek #nerd #autism #bipolar #introvert #socialanxiety

My first Public Freakout Harassment but in Starbucks! I just had to film what's going on and understand this guy may be friendly but was invalidating not only my privacy, but towards another student as well.
It's like that show that is one of my favorites of What Would You Do? (WWYD?) but without the cameras and doing it live of course. He's also been starring at me along quite a bit lately let alone saying some deeply religious topics that I may lose comfort on. You have to respect another person's space and not having to pressure them to do anything.
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #harassment #publicfreakout #weirdpeople #whatwouldyoudo #wwyd #myob #antibullying #introvert #geek #nerd #autism #bipolar #mentalhealth #menshealth #mentalillness #socialanxiety #ptsd #starbucks #starbuckscoffee #vlog #arizona #religion #christianity #catholic

AHH! I LOVE THIS WATER BOTTLE TRICK I KEEP MAKING MYSELF! 😇💧❄ I'm going to put this on my main YouTube channel right when I get to do more Loud House reactions once again but anyone could do this easily!
What you have to do is fill your water bottle from the sink as it works better for tap water ( I do it the Arizonan way ). Lol by making sure you let it sit sideways in the top of your freezer for at least 2 hours and then slowly open the cap and duck your finger inside it. Then, you lightly shake it and it becomes a water slushy and your finger becomes all stuck!
This is one of the smallest things that makes me satisfied during the morning when I have suicidal thoughts and my bipolar moods. 😊
#deongarth #gayguys #instagay #feminine #theloudhouse #nickelodeon #watertrick #waterbottle #justforlaughs #water #liquid #slushy #ice #freeze #snowy #science #chemistry #cold #beverages #summer #vlog #africanamerican #chinese #jamaican #arizona #desert #valley #howto #basic

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