Definitely bittersweet feelings today. My last lil scab came off my chest and it filled me with both anxiety and happiness. In the moment, I instantly freaked out and started panicking that the scab came off too soon. I MUST have lost some of the graft or made the scarring worse or messed something up. After I chilled myself out from that panic, I realized that this is MY chest. No matter the scarring or the pain I had to go through or the “unnatural” look of it, it’s MINE. No one can take away the pure joy I feel when I can go out in public with just a T-shirt against my skin. They can’t take the relief of waking up and knowing I don’t have to constrict my breathing again as soon as I get out of bed. They can’t steal my excitement about getting to swim shirtless this summer. Those things are mine and I’m grateful and proud of myself that I made it through everything to be able to feel them. I’m healing a little more every day, in both my mind and my body.
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