Everyone comes with their own unique personality and interests. They know what they like and they know who they are. Like their souls have their own color. Recently I've discovered that I'm a mannequin under my coat of color.
Last year i had a certain style in music and clothing, and right now I'm starting to jump to a completely different aesthetic. Just as I have every 1-3 years or so. I know, I know... i'm young. I'm figuring out who i am. i'm just going through phases like young people do. But it honestly feels so empty and scary. It's like everyone comes in a unique, solid color, but all i've been doing over the course of my life is put different coats of paint on the blank canvas that is me. Earlier today i peeled off every layer of paint and rated different clothing styles, music genres, and things like that in my brain on a spectrum of "i love it" and "i hate it," and only a few didn't fall right in the "neutral" area. Hell, even my art style fluctuates with every piece i make. I don't know who the fuck i am. I don't feel grounded to anything. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
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