It's no secret that I hate decisioning (yes, that's a word. I've decided that much at least). I hate being asked where I want to eat or what "we should all" do. Ugh. And if I can tell you I *hate* those types of decisions, imagine how I feel about the big ones. I weigh things out, make pro-con lists, and drive myself crazy. But I have also always been the type to get the decision made NOW. I've always been an instant gratification type. I have always had the bullshit belief that making the decision quickly after you realize there's a decision to be made is how you feel better. Getting it off your plate is the end goal. And it's not. Being sure you've made the right decision is the end goal, right? Or maybe letting the decision be made on it's own, or by someone else would actually feel better. I guess there's no way to know for sure, really. But, I'm driving myself crazy trying to figure out the best way to make a difficult decision...thereby....not making a decision, and I'm hating how it feels. Hahaha....*sigh* I'm a walking contradiction. But I'm still in a good mood. Happy with my life and loving myself. Just feeling my way through this new way of thinking.
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