i had a great time watching a movie with my mom.
also, earlier today at lunch i was with a good friend of mine and she wanted to sneak out of school and go to the bridge that goes over a river by my school. i told her i didn't want to go today because i wanted to eat lunch and just relax. she said that it's okay, she has a party next period anyway. she was saying how she wanted to go and i said "if you go i'm staying here" and she just said "okay." then all lunch period she had an earbud in (which i associate with not wanting to talk to me/not paying attention) and was texting/snapchatting multiple people asking if they wanted to go to the bridge with her. then she posted on her snapchat story if anybody wanted to go with her. like wow fuck you. she knew she was gonna leave me behind and she also knows that she's the only person i talk to during lunch.
then after school, we were waiting for her friend (like we do) and i always become a third wheel. today, one of my friends had pulled me aside to tell me something real fast and my friend (the one from lunch) had kept walking with /her/ friend and didn't stop for me, so i had to catch up afterwards. but when /her/ friend stopped to talk to somebody, she stopped too and waited. i waited as well but i felt like i should've just left. and then i said bye to her to get on my bus and she doesn't say bye back until i've already walked away because she's too caught up in conversation with her other friend. i feel gross.
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