Before I met @joshualedbetter I knew I was going to marry a man named Joshua.
When I was 20, I started a husband journal. At the time, I felt crazy. It was weird writing to someone who I had never met before, but I already knew their name,or at least I thought I did, even that I second guessed, many times. But I knew that it was important for me to write in this journal because inside those pages was the place for me to express emotions that I couldn’t elsewhere.
Every time I would open the journal to write I would have so many thoughts, doubts, worries, and fears running through my mind, but also feeling so much peace, contentment and assurance knowing that I was right where God had me.
This past week I opened that husband journal for the first time since marrying Joshua and was instantly brought to tears. 1 year before I met him, I wrote a journal entry to him, on his birthday😳
This was not a coincidence because that journal was not something that I wrote in daily, weekly or even on a monthly basis (ya know that doubt I was talking about earlier? Yeah that would creep in a lot which would lead me to months without writing in it). A line that stuck out to me in that journal entry “I know that God will show me depth of worship through you that I have never experienced before”. As I read that this past week, I was brought to complete tears. If you don't know our story, Joshua was born 100% deaf and prior to meeting him, I had never met a deaf person in my life. Since meeting Joshua, I have learned that the deepest connections in life don’t require sound, they come straight from the heart. That journal entry couldn’t have been more true. Since marrying Joshua I Have felt a depth of worship that I never would have before and I am forever grateful for it.
Wherever you are at today you may be asking your self this, “But why did that happen to me?” “Why did I have to go through that?” You may never know the answer. But God knows. It was the very thing He used to bring you to where you are today and where you are going. Tag a friend who needs to read this ♥️🙏🏼 Don't loose hope, have faith, your time is will come when you least expect it.