"Nothing in nature blooms all year. Be patient with yourself."
This spoke to me deeply recently. Some of you may know I'm prone to bouts of bleakness...and judging from the last few years, it seems to be something cyclical - at a certain phase of the year, for some reason. I have been harsh with myself and felt the need to snap out of it and be my sprightly self again. I have also learnt to sit with the yickiness and some days I may not make it out of bed; some days putting on pants are an achievement. Distractions sometimes help, other times they don't. Intoxicants sometimes help, other times they don't. And I've realised being as grateful as I am for my life doesn't always help see out of the dark either...if anything, it's a vicious cycle of feeling I don't deserve to be down, which sends me in a spiral...
But as the seasons change, I am slowly returned to myself. As Aug moves into Sep into Oct, like summer transitions into fall, the heat softens and everything becomes more colourful. More than ever, i am celebrating victories, even the smallest ones and relishing each moment:
I love the work I've been gifted, to work with these hands, to bring joy, to nourish, to be part of your celebrations.
I love my tribe, the ones who've always been and the ones who are becoming.
I love that I'm brave enough to put myself out there, like I haven't in awhile.
I love fusses over birthdays.
I love that a little gold dress can make me sparkle from the inside 💫
I love that my head is with the balloons 🎈
I love that making béchamel turns me on.
I love that I am still learning so much about myself and learning to be patient with myself.
And this pic says it all for how I feel in this moment ❤ and I'm gonna celebrate it
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